Pain, Anger and the Bigger Picture
The Flatpack Virgin
As you will know if you have browsed this site I have some physical problems caused by a couple of accidents at different times in my life that have led to advanced degenerative joint disease (osteo-arthritis), this I have had for many years. There have been times, as a child, that I was bed bound and in a body cast, and as an adult been almost completely immobile. The pain is pretty constant, but it can peak at times which can make life tough!
I tend to think of my body as a vehicle for my soul to ride around in and have often wondered why I have been given a bit of an old wreck! I have asked my guides many times, particularly during bad episodes “what am I supposed to learn from this?” and have had a variety of answers things like “patience, humility, compassion for others, the difference between the body and the soul” I feel that I have learned these lessons although there is always room for more learning and improvement.
However, yesterday I learned a new lesson. I purchased a flat pack cupboard for my kitchen and with the absence of someone to make it for me I decided to make it myself, this is something I have managed to avoid doing for all of my life so far! All the pieces were taken out of the box and I began the assembly, it would have been a simple task for someone more experienced, but for a ‘flatpack virgin’ like me it took 4 hours of blood, sweat and almost tears! The tears were because making such an item of furniture requires a good degree of physical effort and bending and stretching. By the time I had finished I was in so much pain I could hardly move, it was tough. My husband returned home from the office and I was hoping he might just pick up a little on how much pain I was in, but this is not his forte and instead of a hug and a ‘well done’ all I got was “It isn’t big enough”. I have written about the 5 Reiki precepts before, one of which is “Just for today I will let go of anger” I have to say I had to give myself some serious coaching to achieve this and just for a moment or two I gave way to an outburst of frustration that I took out on the dishes in the washer!
After some rest my emotions eased, but as I went off to bed I wondered how I was going to sleep with the pain levels still high. Every night when I go to bed I meditate and nothing was going to break this routine, so I got myself as comfortable as I could and began to mediate. After about 10 minutes I connected to Reiki and my guides and I threw out the question “why so much pain?” Immediately I got the answer back from my guide that has been with me for as far back into my childhood as I can remember. She told me it was to keep me grounded. This was a lightbulb moment and I fully understood, I am a very down to earth person who is practical and as I have mentioned before don’t really go in for the more ‘frilly’ aspects of some Spiritual pathways. But if I did not have the pain anchoring me to the here and now I do believe I would have a tendancy to want to spend my whole life in more of a dream state forgetting earthly things in favour of the metaphysical.
During this meditation I was guided to perform a Reiki self treatment in quite a different way to how I usually do and afterwards my physical pain had subsided significantly, I had a cup of tea and went of into a sound sleep feeling totally connected and at one with the Universe.
Sixteen years of doing this and Reiki still blows my socks off! I believe that what we are given as a human experience is there to teach us, sometimes the lessons are tough but valuable all the same.
I am a Reiki Master, healer, Lightworker, writer and a seeker of the spiritual gifts of the Universe. Specialising in animal healing and communication, Reiki for people, inspirational blog, www.lesleycollinson.com, meditation lessons, workshops and spiritual life guidance. I have a background in canine behaviour. I believe firmly that although life gives us challenges we don’t have to be broken by them. I aim to bring back balance in a hectic world through simple, gentle yet effective techniques. My Websites offer information about Reiki treatments for people, www.naturalhealingforlife.org, and animals, www.animalhealingsussex.org, workshops and meditation lessons in East Sussex, UK. Reiki is a wonderful complimentary therapy that works well alongside conventional therapies and can assist all manner of problems from emotional, physical and spiritual.